on the way to the airport put a lot more of attention to the sorrownding city.
It was quite light to realize i was no more in japan, but under the snow there was some resemblance between my town and this place.
"under the snow all the streets look like the crossing in front of my old highschool... my highschool? why am i going there? i must to the airport there is something i must do there"
suddenly i found me walking trough unknown streets.
"no this isn't the right way. Why? why cannot go to the airport. Damn! it is just a pair streets away from here"
I strarted to run.
I think i was in panic. This feeling was just as if i were being controlled, as a puppet, which cannot move on his own.
i don'tknoe how long had i been running but at once all my strengh left my and i fell to the floor.
"i can't move any more...Why?...what is wrong?"
-what did you expect?
you are not going to do yourself any good by pushing myself here until i collapse again along the side of the road.-
"...i guess there is no helping it.....................................................................!!!!!!!!"
but when did i collapse. Since we arrived i havn't even felt any symptom of the anemy.
"I must go on..."
someone stood up and suddenly "i" was no more there.
Crowds of walking people...
nameless people without personalities walked straight ahead, without evencsting a glance at the people walking beside them... just like "me" now.
Even thoug there are so many people here together in this crowd "i " only see one thing... nothing
There was people, there was "me", but at the same time there was nobody, just puppets who only see their own path and only live the day from that perspective.
"I was once something different, but when was i like that"
the thoughts of my new me made "me" sick
"when was it. I don't know it any more"
one by one they come to me again. All my memories overcome "me" and my world ended to exist as it is...and began to take place as it was once on a summer day getting up from a guardrail resuming my way to the mansion so i can rest.
-----and exactly like the last time, it all lasted until i see her.
All i did was casualy cast my gaze into the crowd, but my vision freezes.
golden hair and red eyes
her clothes are white, as if they were a symbol of herself-
-my pulse races.
my veins and arteries sping into action my nerves split one after the other.
my spinal cord goes berserk, as if it is about to leap out of my back-
This feeling... this thoughts... "i" already had them once...but...
- The gold-haired girl is just...beautiful-
as always Arcuried is precious
- My heart beats in a rush, urguing me to hurry up-
Yes, it does.
- I can't think.
My brain tells me only one word.-
Yes, it does. Yes, it does!
-just oneword repeating in my brain.
i am going to...-
Wait don't do that!
"I" tried to stop me but "i"wasn't able to do it
powerless "i" felt sick.
powerless "i" couldn't breathe
powerless "i" followed her
powerless "i" chased her
powerless "i" am going to kill her... again.
With every step i took "i" remembered the next one.
my voice was fading away and my troath was dryed up from shouting
I kept walking. i kept following her.
kept seeing which way did she takes, which building did she go in, which floor the elevator stops at.
I kept chasing her.
i and "i" are before the door.
Seeing me pressing the doorbell filled "me" with fear and hate
I didn't care anymore about the circumstqances and reasons of this dream "i" just wanted to stop me even at costs of our live.
"my" hands sorrownded my neck at the moment "i"heard Arcuried's voice at the other side of the door.
when i sliped through the door and "i" tryed to sofocate me, I regained my body and was shallowed by a world of lines and points.
Nothing was there just lines and points, which assembled forms and something, what looked like the horizont.
The coldness of the steel let me know "i" was holding the knife in the hand and the hot sensation on my skin let me guess Arcureid was already dead.
I fell blind on my knees on a floor that could at any time fall apart.
the sound of steps, many of them echoed in my head.
they stoped near me.
the rough touch of the unknown hands, the warmth of the mixture of saliva and sweath. The sweet smell of perfume.
" A dream...?"
then the lines made a castle, by the castle a huge dog, whose side three human-shaped beings stand at.
the lines headed towards me and perfored my skin letting the other sensations go away.
the conversation of the three beings is the only thing i can hear now
They speak about weakness and shame.
They talk about punishment and death.
but i didn't care any more
- ...mine now Tohno Shiki -
so i noticed my dreams were not only mine but ours.
END OF DAY 1