Let's see... I say i would fit into the "caster" archetype, even though i would prefer the "assassin" one for coolness, sex appeal, and emo value.
At least to be a failed one is not too much of a stretch. While i do not ask the eventual reader to believe in what we call, as a whole, "The Occult" i have been researching and studying it, with various levels of commitment and results, for more than fourteen years... And have the psychological scars to prove it. That last line was a joke. Mostly.
Some credentials so you can really see how much time i have thrown away among strange tomes in badly lit rooms instead of being a healthy young man trying to get into the underwear of healthy, well endowed moe girls (with glasses!), hidden to stop this of becoming a wall of text (tm):
I can reproduce, without prior memorizing, so many tables of correspondences i am myself amazed at how much free time i have enjoyed so far. I can actually understand half the Mutus Liber (my personal pride), most seals and keys, understand what those stupidly complex medieval rituals actually mean, recite the meaning of each and every symbol used in the Hermetic-Kabalistic variants of the Tarot (with the full gematric relationships if you get me inspired or are a cute girl with glasses who will go "You are so cool!" in response), throw a historical lesson on the politics of Magical Orders, and can recite the Enochian keys without first reading through my vast collection of ten or twenty dusty tomes of arcane knowledge, half a hundred volumes with only a paragraph or two that are actually not crap, and a couple hundred books only useful for bathroom emergencies and making a fire.
The funny thing is i am not sure i believe on this stuff or, more so, i am not sure i actually want to believe in it, a common thing about those who study it past a certain point and then notice it was something more serious and involved than throwing fireballs, looking cool in a pointy hat, and knowing girls that look really good in red and black... Thus i only use the knowledge gained through those long years of demon summoning, soul stealing, sigil drawing, blood sacrifices, failed sanskrit learning, and girlfriends screaming "you are fucking insane, man!" as they get as far as possible in as little time as they can to write in-depth essays about what the symbols and references used in VNs and Animes written by japanese guys unhealthily obsesed with the Western Occult Traditions actually mean so those who don't want to waste their lives solving the wicked puzzles left by very bored alchemists, doing assanas, finding a good terapist, and carving unholy symbols in their flesh can understand the background better than the writers themselves. So i am not going to turn into an Heroic Spirit anytime soon. Promise.
And yes, at times i do feel i have wasted most of my current life span and will get emo if you mention it, so save such comments for yourself. Thank you.
Lesson of the day: Anonymity is godsend. I love my internet.